Who is feeling the affects of a long and very cold Winter?
I know I am.
By the time February hits my whole body is just a sluggish mess, with no motivation to do anything. My negativity is at an all time high, and even the simplest tasks seem like such work (can I just take a second to admit that it took me about 30 minutes to make basic pasta last night…sauce from a can and noodles…embarrassing). Oh and creativity and inspiration? Totally foreign concepts.
I sound like quite a pleasant person to be around, right? Yeah, not really.
I like to blame the weather, and I’m sure the lack of vitamin D doesn’t help, but can we really blame the season on our own negative outlook? No, probably not. You’re the only person who is responsible for your own happiness, and everyday it is struggle for me to remember that.
So today, instead of wrapping myself in a blanket and taking a nap (my original afternoon plan), I decided to put together a little list of ways to brighten up the end of this miserable Winter and get ready for SRING! So let’s try…
Brighting the day by
1. making a smoothie with fresh fruit and yogurt (I’m all about tea, but sometimes getting your taste buds in a spring mood might get your spirit ready too)
2. going out for ice cream with friends (just don’t go outside with your chilly treat)
3. painting your nails a pretty pastel colour
4. moisturizing! (after this cold winter, your skin deserves some much needed hydration)
5. adding fresh flowers to your home
6. doing a good Spring cleaning (doesn’t everyone always feel refreshed after that?)
7. making an inspiration board (Pinterest is lovely, but sometimes actually physically making a board can be super inspiring to see everyday)
8. writing down goals on pretty stationary, like this
9.putting together a new playlist, full of up beat songs
2013 was a big year for me. I graduated university, decided to study fashion (something that was never really on the table until I realized it was an option…the perfect option!), and made the move to the big city. Yeah, it was a big year, but it was also a hard year. Not necessarily because of any terrible personal tragedies (thankful for that), but mostly because of all the sudden changes I experienced.
Moving to a new city, by myself, after living at home with my parents for 22 years of my life, having the kind of environment that I was very comfortable and attached to, and then stepping out of that very pretty bubble…was that scary? Hell yes!
When I first decided I was going to move for school I was excited. I thought about all the glamorous parts about a move: the freedom, the independence, the fresh start. Why my brain didn’t prepare for the loneliness, the doubts, and the moments of pure terror of having made such a big life decision. Soon after I settled in, there were definitely days I just wanted to crawl under the covers and make my own personal fort of self-pity. Was it pathetic? Yes. Do I regret the way I dealt with it? Nope.
Some people deal with change well. Some don’t. I fit into the second category. I needed change, but it doesn’t mean I was necessarily prepared for it. I don’t think any amount of preparing would have made me ready for being on my own. Point of the story: I’m glad I made this move, I’m glad I dealt with everything so pathetically, I’m glad it wasn’t easy, and I’m glad I struggled (and probably still will). Why? Because it showed me that being here, in Toronto studying something I truly love, is what I really want. It showed me that I can get through some pretty bad shit. It taught me that I can have terrible days that have me so anxious I physically get sick, but that I can get up the next day, write an exam, do a presentation, and survive.
I can survive. I can be on my own. And I will be fine. And knowing that, well, that’s probably the most rewarding part of this whole experience.
This song kind of reminds me of my whole experience, especially this line”
I’m a little lost at sea/ I’m a little birdie in a big old tree/ Ain’t nobody looking for me/Here out on the highway/But I will be found.
The “ain’t nobody looking for me” part isn’t really true (at all), because I have a whole lot of support coming from family and friends, but the part I really identify with is the “I will be found” part. I interpret it as that no matter how alone I feel sometimes, that loneliness is what is going to help me really find myself and what I want out of life.
I think it’s necessary to be alone with yourself to really, truly know who you are. It’s those moments where all you have for company is that little, annoying voice in your head that forces you to see yourself properly. Yes, that voice can be harsh and real and just mean. But it’s that voice that needs to develop in order for me to understand my mind (because it can truly be a confusing place sometimes). So here’s to loneliness and self-discovery! (a positive spin to a negative situation if I ever heard of one)
2014: a year that I am ready for! I don’t know why, but I just have a good feeling about it. I think it’s really going to be my year of self discovery,
I copied my friend and decided to make 14 resolutions for 2014 (thank you Liz!). My resolutions aren’t necessarily specific, but more so things I want to keep in mind as I make my way through life in 2014. So here’s my little list to myself (I strongly encourage sitting down and doing this!)
14 Resolutions for 2014
1) Don’t be scared to do something just because it’s going to make you uncomfortable. It’ll be uncomfortable for a moment and then it will pass. Get over it.
2) Be nicer and more understanding to the people who really matter to you. Not everybody operates on your time. Realize that.
3) Write more. Everyday is a bit too ambitious, but seriously, you want to be a writer? That’s not just going to magically happen if you don’t put the effort in. Blog more and BE CONFIDENT IN YOUR VOICE !
4)Listen to music. Not just the kind you find on the radio. Like actually seek out good music.
5) Spend money wisely. Don’t just buy food because you can. You’re also very capable of making food.
6) Read for enjoyment (obviously), but also read for knowledge (fiction will always be the love, but you’ve got room in your brain to read the kind of books that are going to actually teach you something).
7) Learn things on your own, not just through school. If you want to learn something, take the initiative to just do it.
8) Use the excuse “I don’t have time” less!
9) Be more comfortable in your skin. Stop fidgeting and feeling like an awkward mess. There is no need for it.
10) Focus on the positive more. Like seriously, why are negative thoughts in your head so often when there is so much good stuff going on in your life?
11) Do more things for other people, just because you can.
12) Care less about marks and more about opportunities. That’s what really is going to get you somewhere in life.
13) Stop comparing yourself to others. There are way too many people in the world who you’re always going to think are “better.” You’ll never be satisfied with yourself if you’re constantly comparing. Never.
14) Tell yourself you’re awesome everyday. You don’t do it enough (again, with those negative thoughts, GET RID OF THEM). Just be happy with the wonderful life you have. You have A LOT of good things going on right now. Embrace that.
Ok, so I know I’m about 15 years late, but I’m currently obsessed with Sex and the City. It’s my go-to show, and I think part of that has to do with the show’s fashion relevancy. There’s always some fashion reference in there, and even if there’s not I could spend all day just waiting to see what crazy outfit Carrie is going to wear. Even the crazy ones, the ones that make me think “there’s no way anybody would actually wear that in real life’, are so amazing and ridiculous that I can’t help but love them. Because of my love for her carzy fashion, I decided to put together a little college of some of her best/most crazy looks.
Fun, Flirty, Girly Carrie Brawshaw
Crazy Carrie Outfits
Carrie and Her Stomach
The crop top might have been big this summer, but I’m pretty sure Carrie Bradshaw was way ahead of schedule. She was pulling this look off more than 10 years ago. Seriously after watching multiple episodes of Sex and the City I don’t think I’ve ever seen someone’s stomach/abs so much (good for you, SJP)
How do you feel about Carrie Bradshaw’s fashion/style/outfits? Ridiculous? Yes. But fun? Of course. I’m a fan. It’s like watching a fashion show every time I watch a new episode. I’m off to do that now!
Tonight I decided I had quite the need to write a personal post. I know personal posts might not be the most interesting or relevant to a fashion blog, but sometimes it just has to be done. I have this great platform to get all my feelings out and document it, and well, it’s my blog so if you don’t want to hear the ramblings of a 22 year old girl then this isn’t the post for you (I say that in the kindest way possible).
Lately I have been feeling a huge amount of pressure to figure out what I want to do with my life, which is strange because you would think these feelings would have come while I was in university and studying subjects that I wasn’t passionate about. It should have been then that I was freaking out about not being on the right path. Now that I’m in a program all about fashion, I feel extreme pressure and self doubt. Silly. I guess when I was in university I sort of always knew something was going to come after I got my undergraduate degrees, whether it was grad school, teachers college or some other program. But now, well now I know this is it. I picked this path. I decided I want to do fashion the rest of my life. I don’t worry that I’ll ever stop loving fashion. I know that’s not about to happen, but I do worry about finding the right path for me and getting the most out of my education (and sometimes, when I feel like time is being wasted, that’s really hard for me).
But really, how do we ever know if we’re on the “right” path? Who says what is right or wrong in our own personal lives? I guess that’s really all up to me to decide for myself, and maybe that’s why I’m so stressed over figuring out my future. My future and my happiness is completely up to me. Of course it’s like that for everyone, but everyone deals with their life decisions differently. Unfortunately, I’m an over-thinker, an over-analyzer and a bad decision maker (it’s quite a terrible combination). Some may say that my over-active thoughts are a choice and that I should just be more easy-going when it comes to life, and yes, I try that and I’ve gotten better, but I believe there’s a part of our personalities that are simply who we are. Yet I do know that I need to change my mind-set somewhat, or by the end of this 18 month program I will have successfully driven myself crazy with questioning way more than is necessary for any sane person. So today, as I sit here and write this post and contemplate life, I am making the conscious decision to continue to think about my future and try to figure out what I want out of life, but I’m also committing to actively trying to be more calm about it and accepting of my constantly changing mind. Because really, I think my mind will always be changing, even when I feel at my most satisfied, I doubt I’ll ever be completely done thinking about what else I could do to be more happy. My whole mind changing every second frame of mind may be driving me crazy now in the present, but I think there’s a possibility that it’s what is going to ensure that I live a satisfying and successful life in the future: the ultimate dream.
So what’s up with me? Well, let’s check my iPhone to see if there’s anything fun to share.
The top left picture is of my inspiration board/vision board that I made just for fun (yes, I spent a rainy Satuday afternon cutting and pasting for fun). I actually really love it. It’s right next to my mirror so I see it everyday. Some of the images I really only know why they’re there and what they mean to me, and some of the pictures are honestly just fashion inspiration. Regardless, it’s my vision and I like seeing it everyday
This week I had a mass sugar craving and a donut was bought, and I of course had to get the Leafs one. Because, first of all, I live here now. Second of all, I seem to be surrounded by Leaf fans in my life. But most importantly, the Leaf donuts seemed to have the most sprinkles and icing! (I may or may have not also gone to the dollar store this week and bought a bag of chocolate…)
I went on some pretty Fall walks and had delicious lattes made by kind people.
I made a DELICIOUS broccoli and tortellini soup (actually cooking instead of microwaving does a whole lot for the soul).
I witnessed some really bad grammar on a metropass card reader (apparently using the words “does not” or “doesn’t” requires too much effort, sad).
I made my photography inspiration book that was decorated with vines and purple flowers, because really, it wouldn’t be an Andrea Spanik creation if it wasn’t adorned in girly/pretty/obnoxious items.
And the bottom left picture shows off two of the vintage pieces I got at the Toronto Vintage Clothing Show, the bracelet and the earrings (that I talked about here). Very sadly I somehow managed to break the bracelet because I have very bad luck with jewelry. Hopefully it can be fixed!
That’s all for me tonight. Now it’s time to go hang out with my friends Carrie, Samantha, Miranda, and Charlotte (yeah, I’m a little behind on the times, but Sex and the City is seriously my new favourite show!) Have a great night/sleep/day to everyone
Just a short post for tonight that I think will be very beneficial to those people who like to hoard nail polish. Are you one? I’m not a huge nail painter. I tend to just pick it all off and have the nails of a 12 year old girl, but despite my bad nail habits, I do have quite a nice collection of nail polish. Why? Because my nail polish never dries up. Ever. How? Because I keep all of my nail polish in my fridge…. Yes, you read that correctly, my fridge, right next to my cream cheese and turkey lunch meat sits a whole bag of wonderful nail polish.
Most people find this very odd, but I swear, it works! I’m not sure how (maybe there’s some fancy science behind it, but that’s not really my area of expertise). But I’m telling you, if you start storing your nail polish in the fridge, you’re never going to have that annoying moment where you go to paint your nails your favourite shade of pink and it’s all dried up. I’ve had bottles of nail polish that I bought when I was 10 and I can still use them today. Maybe that’s slightly cheap of me, but hey, many of us could use some easy money saving tips. So maybe you spend too much money on nail polish and this little trick will save your back account. Or maybe you just want to grow your collection. Or maybe you’re like me and you just figure, why let it dry up when I can keep it forever. So yeah, maybe it is a little odd, but it’s a quirky little tip from me to you. Try it out and watch as your nail polish magically never dries up!
So for class this week I have to put together some photographs that inspire me, so I thought I’d include them on my blog too (maybe they’ll also inspire you). I’ve always wanted my blog to a place full of inspiration and pretty things, and I think these photos perfectly accomplish this goal. Plus a lot of them are fashion inspired. Here’s just a couple. Let me know what you think!
By Stephanie Williams
By Eleanor Hardwick
By Tim Walker (I’m in love with the bottom right picture)
By Brumley and Wells (they have stunning wedding photography)
By Rodney Smith (his photos were by far my favourite)
It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these, but I’m going to get back into doing my weekly life photo collage (because you know I take pictures of everything so why not use them). I have about a billion pictures since I last did one, but these are mostly from the last 2 months or so.
The Taylor Swift perfume picture in the bottom row was for a school project. It’s my window display concept. I really liked how it came out, and then in the top row is my fashion window concept. Also for school. What do you think?
What else has happened in the past couple months? Well, I’ve become employed, I went to CNE in Toronto, went home and got to see my lovely friends, had some tiny little beer samples (yes I like beer), did some shopping, went to a HUGE fabric store (you know you’re a fashion student when this happens), hung out with my roommate’s dog (probably too much time spent with a dog), spent way too much time at Second Cup, made two delicious dinners for the boyfriend. Speaking of the boyfriend, see that guy in the bottom left corner? Yeah, he’s pretty much responsible for this blog. What a guy :). So yes, that’s my life. Lots of changes, lots of moments of just wanting to go back to Windsor, but also lots of fun. It should be interesting to see what the next couple months bring.
Oh and HAPPY THANKSGIVING! Hope everyone gets to spend some time with their families this weekend. I get to see mine in a couple hours. So excited! (yay real home cooked food!)
Have you noticed that sweatshirt wearing ladies are taking over the streets? This Fall it has gotten almost impossible to run an errand and not see somebody rocking a comfy, casual sweatshirt but doing it with extreme class and style. No longer are sweatshirts considered simple loungewear. Sweatshirts have now become a staple for every women who loves fashion. Our Fall 2013 sweatshirts are adorned with leather, studs, sequins, bright colours, luxurious fabrics, and intricate designs. Personally, my sweatshirt collection is composed of ugly, oversized sweats that I wear purely to keep warm. Sure, that might be considered practical, but it sure is not fashionable. So if you’re like me and you haven’t fully jumped on the sweatshirt trend of 2013, here are some pictures to help inspire you when you’re on your next shopping adventure!
My favourite way to do this trend is with a girly skirt and then a slightly oversized sweatshirt, with pretty embellishments of course. (shown above)
Clearly this trend can be done in numerous ways. We’ve got super casual on top with stores like Forever 21 and BCBG spotlighting sweatshirts, but then on the bottom we have runway looks from Dior. Very different style (and price point), but both work (I’m partial to a more casual look, but maybe that’s just because I can’t afford designer items. How about you?)
And some more street style looks (because really, what’s worn on the streets of Paris and New York can be some of the best examples of amazing style)
So what are some of your favourites? I kind of love them all, but I think I’m biased because I picked each picture. Do you like this trend? How do you wear it? (question overload, but I’m curious)